soccer

Today, I played a game of soccer for the first time in a LONG time.  It was really fun!  I guess training for a run has helped me feel more excited to play.

Awake my soul

How fickle my heart and how woozy my eyes
I struggle to find any truth in your lies
And now my heart stumbles on things I don't know
My weakness I feel I must finally show

Lend me your hand and we'll conquer them all
But lend me your heart and I'll just let you fall
Lend me your eyes I can change what you see
But your soul you must keep, totally free
Har har, har har
har har, har har

awake my soul...
awake my soul...

In these bodies we will live,
in these bodies we will die
Where you invest your love,
you invest your life

awake my soul...
awake my soul...
awake my soul...
For you were made to meet your maker

-Mumford & Sons

Uncertainty is my most loyal friend

I’m trying to figure out how to reconcile the desire to write with teaching, social activism, and family life. I’m unsure if I should pursue writing, teaching, international development, or some other type of work. I’m also not sure if I should go back to grad school.  I’m not sure if we should start having children.

Can I combine all of these things into something I love?  The only thing that is clear for me is that nothing is clear.

On being with others

"I am of the opinion that "marriage" as such does not deserve as much emphasis as it has accrued because of the conventional development of its nature.  No one would dream of expecting a single individual to be "happy" --once someone is married, however, everyone is very astonished when he is not happy!  (Meanwhile it actually isn't all that important to be happy, neither as an individual nor as a married person.)  In some regards, marriage simplifies the conditions of life, and such a union surely augments the strengths and determinations of two young people so that they jointly seem to reach further into the future than before.  Only these are sensations by which one cannot live.  Above all marriage is a new task and a new seriousness--a new challenge and a question regarding the strength and kindness of each participant and a new great danger for both."

-Rainer Maria Rilke