I want to live where the sun comes out...

I love that I have that little "blog without obligation" reminder on my blog. This really is an outlet for me. I realize that I don't feel like blogging that much when stuff is going interestingly or well in my life. I feel more like blogging when I feel kind of lonely.

I guess that's sort of pathetic but, I think it makes sense. When I have good friends around to be with and talk to, I don't need this other useful form of processing my thoughts or emotions. Even if I don't just bare my soul on here, sometimes the vagueness of it is helpful, even this is helpful. Even if no-one reads this, it is helpful. Maybe I'll hang around here more for a while.

I wanna live life and never be cruel.
I wanna live life and be good to you.

And I wanna fly and never come down.
And live my life and have friends around.

We never change, do we?
We never learn, do we?

So, I wanna live in a wooden house.

I wanna live life and always be true.
I wanna live life and be good to you.

And I wanna fly and never come down.
And live my life and have friends around.

We never change, do we?
We never learn, do we?

So I wanna live in a wooden house,
where making more friends would be easy.

Oh, and I don't have a soul to save.
Yes, and I sin every single day.

We never change, do we?
We never learn, do we?

So I wanna live in a wooden house,
Where making more friends would be easy.
I wanna live where the sun comes out ...

-Coldplay

staying for 10 years

Last week I got to know one of my co-workers a little better. She told me that she'd been working with the organization that runs the school I work at for about 10 years on and off since high school. She said, "This is a good place and it only gets better and better." I think anyone would admit that there are areas where the organization could improve, that is just one more reason that it's a good organization.

I spent the rest of the evening thinking about staying somewhere for 10 years. I haven't lived anywhere for 10 years in almost 10 years. I've spent the better part of the last 8 years moving from place to place. I wonder if I will ever be in one place for 10 or 20 years. There seems to be something very, very good about investing in a place with that type of commitment.

Some day, I'd like to be around long enough to see children I knew in elementary school graduating from high school and maybe stick around longer than that... I don't know where that'll end up being but, there is something in me that craves it a little at least.

“…now I could love without needing to be loved again… I knew now, that it is by loving and not by being loved, that one can come nearest the soul of another, yea, that, where two love, it is the loving of each other; and not the being beloved by each other, that originates and perfects and assures their blessedness… Yet all love will, one day, meet with its return. All true love will, one day, behold its own image in the eyes of the beloved, and be humbly glad.” -Phantasties